spiritual musings

Master Numbers

Friends who know me well know that I’m into numerology 101 and often ask me what certain numbers are about. When we notice the same numbers all the time, it just means that there’s something we need to know or focus on for a while. For example, when I came back from Doreen Virtue’s Angel Intuitive course in 2006 I saw 444 and 333 all the time. 444 is the Angelic number, indicating that you have Angelic support and you should call on the Angels for help and guidance.

One of Australia’s better known psychics, Scott Russell Hill, maintains that seeing the same numbers(s) all the time is a contracted reminder to sit in that moment and listen to Spirit.

Here’s a list of the Master Numbers and what they mean:

11 There is a need to pay attention to your thoughts and ideas. You are a highly creative person. You need to choose your thoughts carefully as they create your reality. Don’t put any energy into fear or doubt in case you manifest that. You are the intuitive dreamer and you need to be grounded in faith.

22 A powerful number. Your deep faith enables you to manifest whatever you desire. Have faith in your ideas, because you can make them a reality!

33 The number that signifies the Masters, particularly Jesus. They are here to help you, so call on them and ask them whatever you like. 33 is the master Teacher. You have a genuine devotion to help others spiritually.

44 The Angels surround you. Ask them for help and guidance. You are attaining a balance between the physical and spiritual.

55 You are going through a major positive life change. Let go of old baggage or anything you no longer need so it can be healed.

99 You are a lightworker here to help heal the planet. You are ready, you have everything you need to get started!

My Story

I spent most of my life being particularly guarded about sharing my own spiritual beliefs. When I started this blog and was writing predominantly about the Vagina book, the majority of comments and emails from friends was about how brave they thought I was. But you know, being able to use the words vagina or labia without the least bit of embarrassment isn’t brave; doctors and surgeons do it all the time. Talking freely and openly about your beliefs and your dreams and your spirit and your heart; that’s brave. Writing a novel where I can express some of these things through a protagonist is easy. Expressing these beliefs standing here in my own authentic truth is much harder.

So here goes!

My spiritual journey started a long time ago when my mother took me to a crystal workshop and bought me an amethyst when I was about 13. It has slow and humble beginnings, let me tell you! Much of it was wrought with much confusion and fear of being different. You see my father at the time (actually, he’s still my father! He’s just undergone a significant emotional change and is quite the different person now to who he was when I was growing up) was the complete polar opposite to my mother. Mum was a feminist, an activist and an altruist, and dad was a conservative, acrimonious grump. (Yes, it was an interesting childhood!) I was always a highly sensitive child, hated conflict and would avoid it at all costs, which meant laying low at home was a given. I was always intuitively interested in the things that mum lead me to. Of course in the mid-eighties going to crystal workshops and kinesiologists wasn’t the done thing - especially not for a 13 year old, so if I talked about it at school - well let’s just say - I learnt not to pretty quickly. Hence the clandestine beginnings of my spiritual beliefs.

From a very young age writing became the way that I could truly express myself and the only times in my childhood when I think I truly felt safe. That feeling lingers still. But along the way, and much of it due to my dad’s opinions about anything of a New Age/spiritual nature, I became very quiet about what I truly believed, and so developing it has taken me a long long time.

My twenties were particularly difficult. I felt that I was never quite doing what I should be and that I was always missing something terribly important. I had this almost imperceptible knowing that if I just listened to my intuition a whole new world would open up to me. That was a long time coming. In my twenties my self-esteem was directly linked to my looks and the pressure I put on myself was ridiculous. I also went through a long lasting stage where I was extremely derisive about the concept of ‘God’. My parents didn’t bring up my sister and I in a religious household. We never went to church and it always seemed quite clear that dad didn’t hold any religious or spiritual beliefs and mum was just so bent on finding herself that she forgot to pass on much of a belief in anything either. Yes, she took me to amazing workshops and helped me open my mind to many possibilities (thankfully), but there was always this disembodied sense to it all, always this sense that we were looking outside for something to nourish the inside. And my how we looked!

I became a guru junkie in my twenties, always looking for someone else to tell me the answer and give me the key to my happiness and my future. It wasn’t all bad though! In that decade I offloaded more emotional baggage than I dreamed possible. I still can’t believe how much fear and anger I was carrying. This of course freed me up enough to achieve some level of peace so that I could finally start to go inwards on my own. This was a big breakthrough - to have the trust in myself that I had always placed on someone else; someone I considered more enlightened, more powerful and more intuitive than me. I read books that changed my perspective and I re-read books from my childhood (like Louise Hay) that I started to connect with on a level much deeper than just an intellectual one. I learnt to meditate properly for the first time in my life - and believe me, I’d been trying for a few decades!

It was doing an Angel Intuitive course with Doreen Virtue in 2006 that seemed to be the piece of the puzzle that really opened me up. My intuition is unfailing now and as time goes on, my faith in it grows ever stronger. My meditations took me to another level, particularly when I was actually doing the course with Doreen. Now I’m very connected to Spirit in a way I never was before and I realise now that was all that was missing; faith. Everything changed from the minute I had true faith. I mean everything. My card readings are connected and I am aware of subtle energies around me that before were just a feeling. My Nonno, my paternal grandfather, sits with me when I write and I realised that he’s always done that and always been there. Being aware of these connections is such a beautiful gift. Not to mention that when I swapped intellectual belief for faith I met my soulmate and realised what my life purpose in this life is.

So what are my beliefs? I believe that we are all connected and we are all of the same ’stock’- in other words God is everywhere in everything - whether you call it ‘God’ or ’spirit’ or ‘Divine energy’ - we are all connected to it and we are all here to learn lessons before we move on. We move on to another life if we have more lessons to learn. If we don’t learn certain lessons in this life then we’ll come back and go over them again until we do. We will attract the same scenarios and teachers until we learn it and move on. When we have learnt all that this physical earth has to offer us we return to the pure energy that we once were; the pure source; or God. There are and always have been avatars or spiritual teachers among us. These teachers have learnt many lessons and their energy vibrations are very high. Jesus, Buddha, Abraham, Mother Teresa… there are so many. There are so many teachers and Angels with these high vibrations who are there to help us whenever we need them. All we have to do is ask. When you meditate you raise your vibrational frequency so that you can connect with higher energies. If you keep your thoughts and feelings at a high vibratory level then you will attract other energies at a high level. This is how you can create what you desire in your life. The key though is faith. Without it you are stuck in intellectual belief, the vibration of which is often too low to attract what you want. Belief and Faith are very different. Often, along with belief comes doubt, and doubt just attracts more doubt.

When you go within and just allow yourself to sit and feel your own energy you start to learn where your heart is at; if it’s doubting and rational, or loving and accepting.

NB I don’t follow a particular religion or dogma. ‘Spiritual’ means to have a conscious soul. To be Spiritual means to be on a path to healing yourself, at a soul level; to be doing so consciously.

Favourite books…

• Dan Millman’s Peaceful Warrior series
• Any Caroline Myss
• Conversations with God
• Doreen Virtue - particularly Lightworker’s Way, Angel Medicine & Angel Numbers
  
• Vibrational Medicine (Richard Gerber) - Not a light read - be warned!
• Favourite cards - Doreen Virtue Goddess Guidance Deck

Me and Doreen oct 2006